Lingering in bed this past Sunday morning, I found myself thinking of aspects of my childhood, of being a first child. Not surprising, since I had just had a lovely visit with my sweet mother just a month or so before. What I realized upon my pillow was that I finally felt approved of by her.
This change was big for me. Undoubtedly she has approved of me much earlier in my life, but that morning my heart was finally more open to catching that realization. I had spent my life striving to meet standards I thought other people had. Many decisions, and some mistakes I had made in life were in trying to catch that ethereal ring…and when I felt disapproved of, I thought less of myself.
After many years, there was a period of my life when I was alone, kids all off to their college or careers, and I delved into a time of searching and studying the Scriptures. It was a real hunger and interest, fueled by a desire to know my always approving God. He so loved me He sent Jesus to die for me, and for all who accept His gift. Certainly I make mistakes, but I can freely go to the Throne of Grace for mercy and grace in time of need. I have been given the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, and that means I always stand right before not because of anything I did, or do, because of what Jesus did once for all. For so many years I have had Jesus as my Lord and Savior, but now I finally realize on a truly deeper level that I cannot lose His approval.
We all need some truth settled with unshakable certainly. Something unchangeable. Mine is – I am loved by my Creator with an everlasting love! Approved forever.
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved.” (Eph 1:6 NKJV)